2007-01-30

Time reclamation

About a week ago, I finally did it. I canceled my subscription to WoW. I canceled it on the heals of the release of their expansion Burning Crusade. I didn't cancel because of the expansion; it looked really cool. I didn't cancel because I didn't like the game; I liked it a lot, it's well designed, fun, and beautiful. I didn't cancel because it was too hard or wasn't my thing; I have friends that play and the quest progression system is straight forward and fun. I didn't cancel it because it costs too much; $15 a month hasn't affected me all that much and is far from my most costly monthly subscription fees. I did it for 2 reasons, which ends up boiling down to 1 reason when I think about it. That reason is (drumroll)... I got too fucking burned out on EverCrack. I put years into that game, time I can't get back. I look back and it feels like such a waste. That retrospect as well as other things like not having used the time to accomplish other things that I said I'd do but never did has made me rethink my priorities. Now, having played EQ (esp. an EQ ranger) I have a total appreciation for WoW. If I had started off on WoW, it's even quite possible I would not have gotten burned out at all. But it didn't happen that way and now it's too late. I just don't make time to play. I'm afraid to play. I don't want to get re-addicted. Yes, it is possible to have short fun and WoW is conducive to hour-here hour-there play... but durnit, I need those hours now. I want those hours now. And with the goals that I'm trying to make for myself I can't afford to commit those hours to MMORPGs anymore. I really want to but I just can't. Lord help me.

As you can tell, I'm still in recovery.